Where To Start

It is now the first day of October. I have not posted a blog since February but for good reason.  As most know I have had a lot going on since last year. From being addicted to a certain pain killer to learning to live life again without having to make myself high to do so.  But since February 2019 my life has been everything but simple and easy.  In April Ken and I had one of the biggest fights we have ever had. I will leave it at that out of respect for him and our relationship. However, since then I have battled with my health especially mental health severally.  I will say pretty much the summer was pretty decent, normal summer besides Ken not working but we survived.  Fast forward to September,  I know my body, I have struggled since I was 12 years old with my thyroid. I have a under active thyroid. For six and half years tho, I have been on the same script mcg. My body stop responding. But by September I got to the point I found absolutely no joy in anything. Like I was back to doing bare minimum to survive. I had brain fog like none other. Half the time not remember where I put my keys.  So I spoke with my doctor after not seeing her since April.  She couldn’t do anything with my thyroid meds because previously my levels came back normal (they’ve come back just in the normal range since having Ryleigh).  Therefor she was worried tho because I do have a goiter and now have a knot above the goiter that’s tender. Now I have to have an ultrasound done.  She put me on a generic form of Zoloft.  I went to the doctor on a Thursday and by Monday they were calling me that indeed my thyroid medicine wasn’t responding.  For almost two weeks I have been on Zoloft and a week and a few days have been on a new mcg of thyroid medicine.  But I really can tell a change. I’m getting my spark back. When I say I lost joy in anything, I even lost joy in keeping up with my planner. Well today I order my new Erin Condren planner and some Etsy stickers and ya girl can not wait to dive in. I also have been wanting to clean more and do things more. I’ve been a lot more active than I have been in a very long time and I hope that it stays this way. 

With all that being said, I am wanting to really dive back into blogging. Even if it’s just simply about our day. I am not going to make  quarented posting schedule but ya girl is going to try and back to what she loves to do. I am also gonna go through and clean up my blog some. My website isn’t extremely fancy but hoping once we get a computer back in our home can get all that set up. 

I hope those that have taken time out to visit the Occassionally Chaotic Mom understands why I’ve been gone but sticks around for more things to come. 

Also to remember you know your body better than anyone. Don’t stop fighting to feel better.

Thanks For Stopping By, 

The Occassionally Chatic Mom, 

Diedra

A Moment That Can Change Everything

That moment that can absolutely change everything.  Saturday March 5th, 2016, my friend (whom is like a little sister to me) Julie & her friend Jessica (Who I have adopted as one of my little sisters as well) came up to our house for a surprise visit EARLY Saturday morning. In what I thought was a joke about me making a chocolate lush turned out to be them not joking when I woke up and they were in my living room. Well they didn't stay very long at all. They left before noon. We kept trying to get Julie to stay and we'd take her home. Jessica could stay as well but she had to work that night. However, luckily Julie's guy friend she is talking to was here and was going to follow them to go eat at a restaurant that was on their way home which we living in Southeastern Missouri and they live in northern Mississippi.
Exactly less than about 15 minutes went by after they left my house as well as a possible mile from my house Julie and Jessica were involved in a serious accident.  Jessica isn't from here and thought the oncoming traffic was going to stop. Luckily the man who hit them seen what was fixing to happen and all though he couldn't avoid hitting them he done his best at slowing down as much as he could as well as he swerved enough to hit the front end driver side bumper and wheel. Because he knew if he hit Jessica driver side door at the speed he slowed down to with his big ol SUV that the wreck would have been a lot worse.  I thank GOD above and the stranger who didn't know them do everything he could do to prevent this wreck being worse than it was.   We spent pretty much all afternoon in the ER with Jessica and Julie.  Julie has a lot of bruising. Jessica got the worse she broke her clavicle bone. Saphira Julie's puppy who just got out of doggy hospital from having her toes amputated was flown out of of the window. However, she survived it! :) Thank God for all the prayers from people and those checking in on Julie. Because one MOMENT can change everything. 

Be positive and stay blessed! :)