Where To Start

It is now the first day of October. I have not posted a blog since February but for good reason.  As most know I have had a lot going on since last year. From being addicted to a certain pain killer to learning to live life again without having to make myself high to do so.  But since February 2019 my life has been everything but simple and easy.  In April Ken and I had one of the biggest fights we have ever had. I will leave it at that out of respect for him and our relationship. However, since then I have battled with my health especially mental health severally.  I will say pretty much the summer was pretty decent, normal summer besides Ken not working but we survived.  Fast forward to September,  I know my body, I have struggled since I was 12 years old with my thyroid. I have a under active thyroid. For six and half years tho, I have been on the same script mcg. My body stop responding. But by September I got to the point I found absolutely no joy in anything. Like I was back to doing bare minimum to survive. I had brain fog like none other. Half the time not remember where I put my keys.  So I spoke with my doctor after not seeing her since April.  She couldn’t do anything with my thyroid meds because previously my levels came back normal (they’ve come back just in the normal range since having Ryleigh).  Therefor she was worried tho because I do have a goiter and now have a knot above the goiter that’s tender. Now I have to have an ultrasound done.  She put me on a generic form of Zoloft.  I went to the doctor on a Thursday and by Monday they were calling me that indeed my thyroid medicine wasn’t responding.  For almost two weeks I have been on Zoloft and a week and a few days have been on a new mcg of thyroid medicine.  But I really can tell a change. I’m getting my spark back. When I say I lost joy in anything, I even lost joy in keeping up with my planner. Well today I order my new Erin Condren planner and some Etsy stickers and ya girl can not wait to dive in. I also have been wanting to clean more and do things more. I’ve been a lot more active than I have been in a very long time and I hope that it stays this way. 

With all that being said, I am wanting to really dive back into blogging. Even if it’s just simply about our day. I am not going to make  quarented posting schedule but ya girl is going to try and back to what she loves to do. I am also gonna go through and clean up my blog some. My website isn’t extremely fancy but hoping once we get a computer back in our home can get all that set up. 

I hope those that have taken time out to visit the Occassionally Chaotic Mom understands why I’ve been gone but sticks around for more things to come. 

Also to remember you know your body better than anyone. Don’t stop fighting to feel better.

Thanks For Stopping By, 

The Occassionally Chatic Mom, 

Diedra

Five hours to be up and still no sleep.

My time its 8 minutes until 1 am. I know your thinking good God almighty woman you have to be up in five and half hours.  That's right I do, I mean how lovely would it be that the kids get up quietly, dress themselves, feed them breakfast.  (which in all honesty mine eat at school if they chose to. I now award me horrible mom of the year because I don't wake up every single morning to fix my kids a breakfast. To be honest they chose to eat at school. )   Oh back to daydreaming,  brush their hair and teeth,  gather/make sure they have everything, and then wake me up when it's time to take them.  So what's keeping me awake you may ask? Well it's honestly a number off things. 1. The major thing is my pinched sciatic nerve.  I had a wreck my senior year of high school and fracture my tailbone. Over the years the bottom of my spine which some refer to as your tailbone has curved and looks like a hook.  Which also puts pressure on my sciatic nerve. My son also when I was pregnant laid on my nerve. (Thank You Son*insert sarcasim*) 

2. Not as major but important. Cluttered mind,stressful mind, and it won't shut off. I'm in the process of "fall purging". I fall clean and purge, nor spring. Don't ask why, it just works for us better. Don't get me wrong I do spring clean as well just not in depth. However, I'm tired of the clutter. But trying to do it all by yourself gets tiresome (no pun intended). But I lay in bed thinking, what I might do next and then bam, I am up writing a blog post. Before u know it, it's late and I'm needing my brain to shut up at least for 5 hours. Instead I will drag tomorrow and get little to nothing done. Which leads me back to square one. Ugh !!!!!

3. On top of all of that I also suffer from insomnia. I am sure ya could figure that out when I said my brain doesn't shut off when it should. No further details to explain. 

Now I will try this whole bed thing one more time. 

Adios Amigos/amigas. 

Diedra