Our Saturdays Are Boring Lately

Today has been what I would consider a typical Saturday in our household, minus some things. Pretty much since Ken started working his new job he has worked Saturdays. It’s been something to adjust to since he works second shift.  Him working second shift has really been something to adjust too but that’s a whole other story. Today seemed to be just overall a bleh day. Brayden has pretty much stayed bundled on the couch. He hasn’t felt the greatest and neither have I. I chalked mine up to being Aunt Flo visiting but even that has been off this go around.  However, I just have felt extremely tired. I honestly didn’t even get up for the day u til around 11:30 a.m.. and have pretty much stayed in bed all day.  That’s okay though we are allowed to take it easy some days or even multiple days if we want too.  Ryleighs boyfriend is gone for the weekend so she has stayed at my parents all weekend.  Therefore making today extremely boring because it’s been so quiet especially since Brayden hasn’t been his normal bouncing off the wall self today.  He has actually been asleep for a few hours which very rarely happens on a Saturday even with his sleep medicine he still try’s to stay up all night. Ryleigh started her a FB page where she is sellingscrunchies she’s making and bracelets. My little hustler entrepreneur little girl.  But here’s to another boring Saturday. Tomorrow’s agenda will probably be just as boring besides the fact Ken will be off and we are going grocery shopping.

Anyhoo, this momma is gonna go to bed so I can get up to make sure Brayden feels ok enough to go to church in the morning. Just maybe I will feel better and get some much needed picking up around the house done. 

The Occassionally Chaotic Momma

Diedra

One Sleepy Birthday

Not sure if I have mentioned lately that my son is in his last year of Elementary school and my daughter is in her last year of Middle School.  This week for both of them has been Homecoming Spirit Week. Each day they were allowed to participate in the fun activities to show their school spirit. Today (Oct 10th) has been overall in my opinion the funnest of them all. What child doesn’t like PJ day at school but what made it extra special is today is my daughters 14th birthday.  That’s right my baby was born October 10th, 2005 at 5:19 pm. 

But today was also such a fun day for Brayden as it was PJ Day for him is as well.

He wore a onesie of the llama character from Fortnite. Once the kids were home from school our friend Micki and her little boy Iain whom I refer to as my nephew came out and we all went to the Homecoming Parade. The theme this year was Mirror Mirror...therefore Brayden was one of the seven dwarfs and he chose to be sleepy. However we found out as soon as we got to the float that supposedly they got T-shirt’s made with the character names on them and hats and beards made. Since not knowing this until 15 minutes before the parade started I hand made Braydens costume this afternoon and I feel he turned out one cute sleepy dwarf. He even had house slippers to match. 

With the parade being tonight and Ken working we haven’t officially celebrated her birthday. We plan on celebrating it next weekend because she wants to celebrate it with her daddy and boyfriend (he’s gonna be out of town this weekend) by all of going to the movies.  Overall we had a wonderful night, now off to dreamland for us all.

Love always, 

The Occassionally Chaotic Mom

Diedra

Where To Start

It is now the first day of October. I have not posted a blog since February but for good reason.  As most know I have had a lot going on since last year. From being addicted to a certain pain killer to learning to live life again without having to make myself high to do so.  But since February 2019 my life has been everything but simple and easy.  In April Ken and I had one of the biggest fights we have ever had. I will leave it at that out of respect for him and our relationship. However, since then I have battled with my health especially mental health severally.  I will say pretty much the summer was pretty decent, normal summer besides Ken not working but we survived.  Fast forward to September,  I know my body, I have struggled since I was 12 years old with my thyroid. I have a under active thyroid. For six and half years tho, I have been on the same script mcg. My body stop responding. But by September I got to the point I found absolutely no joy in anything. Like I was back to doing bare minimum to survive. I had brain fog like none other. Half the time not remember where I put my keys.  So I spoke with my doctor after not seeing her since April.  She couldn’t do anything with my thyroid meds because previously my levels came back normal (they’ve come back just in the normal range since having Ryleigh).  Therefor she was worried tho because I do have a goiter and now have a knot above the goiter that’s tender. Now I have to have an ultrasound done.  She put me on a generic form of Zoloft.  I went to the doctor on a Thursday and by Monday they were calling me that indeed my thyroid medicine wasn’t responding.  For almost two weeks I have been on Zoloft and a week and a few days have been on a new mcg of thyroid medicine.  But I really can tell a change. I’m getting my spark back. When I say I lost joy in anything, I even lost joy in keeping up with my planner. Well today I order my new Erin Condren planner and some Etsy stickers and ya girl can not wait to dive in. I also have been wanting to clean more and do things more. I’ve been a lot more active than I have been in a very long time and I hope that it stays this way. 

With all that being said, I am wanting to really dive back into blogging. Even if it’s just simply about our day. I am not going to make  quarented posting schedule but ya girl is going to try and back to what she loves to do. I am also gonna go through and clean up my blog some. My website isn’t extremely fancy but hoping once we get a computer back in our home can get all that set up. 

I hope those that have taken time out to visit the Occassionally Chaotic Mom understands why I’ve been gone but sticks around for more things to come. 

Also to remember you know your body better than anyone. Don’t stop fighting to feel better.

Thanks For Stopping By, 

The Occassionally Chatic Mom, 

Diedra

One Panic Filled Night

Granted the afternoon/night started out semi normal. I mean besides deciding last minute we were having Little Ceasers for supper and that we forgot it was Wednesday night. Meaning tonight is Braydens trail life group night.

Anyways, no parents likes hearing this words, someone is planning on shooting up the school tomorrow.
Immediately went into Momma Bear mode, sent a message to the superintendent with a screenshot of the "warning" from SnapChat. As of right now two children who made the threat were in custody as well as the child who were told by the said children above of their plans. (That child was just interviewed as to what he was all told.)  I must say though in all seriousness the school district as well as the county has handled it well and for extra safety of our children the county officers will be present tomorrow at the school.

The outcome of the two children is still unknown. I want to elaborate on some things from the events that took place tonight.

1. The children who made the threat I have been told by multiple other parents who know the children or  children's parents that these children do whatever they please. They have no discipline at home. From my understanding walk all over town they live in and have been accused as being the suspicious acts of breaking into the local elementary schools buses.

2. The children I have been told again by multiple parents as well as my own child they have been in trouble at school for having bullets in class.

So here's what I'd like to say, children are here because two people had sex and conceived the children. You as a parent know how they are made. Therefore Take care of them, dont let them do as they please because they are out of your hair and you dont have to deal with it. Because you get children like stated above believing they are invincible and can do as they damn well please.

With that being said, I want to end this by saying please for the Love of God be a parent. My child wants to go to school tomorrow and the only reason I am allowing it, is because of the extra security that will be tomorrow.

Rant Over, because its 1:19 am amd  6:40 am comes early for this Occassionally Chaotic Mom.

Goodnight

Diedra

Momma, Why Did Ya Do That?

I am normally the type of person who usually does not get embarrassed easily. Quite frankly I can only come up with a handful of times I have ever been embarrassed.  I mean you grow up with a fairly large breast size for an adolescent girl you kind of brush off embarrassment when your bra size because a topic in the middle of Wal-Mart.

But, oh there's a but. I do remember vividly the time my now 13 year old daughter at two years old embarrassed the shit out of me in the middle of JC Penny's.

Children, shall I say toddlers, have no shame, they can do anything and it be cute. Right?

Wrong..

So there was this time where my then 2 year old and I were standing in line at JC Penny's fixing to check out. Ryleigh at that age was at the stage of learning independence and  wanted to test the waters or shall I say my patience. For the most part we were the last in line waiting to be seen, so anytime I needed to step out of my spot to grab her I got my spot back. This all happened in roughly a 15 minute time frame. The elderly couple in front of me were returning a few things and purchasing as well. The moment they were done checking out and  turning around to step out of the doors, my daughter let one rip. Yes, my then two year old farted so loudly it was a mixed sound between a grown man and a grizzly bear.  As I went to apologize for my daughters loud flatulence she plain as day says with pride, "Mommy, Why'd ya do that for?" The elderly couple looked at me and smiled, not sure in disgust thinking I really just let one rip or because they felt sorry for me as I muttered excuse US in pure embarrassment. That or they took a deep breath, smiled, and held their breath until they walk through the cloud of despair. The check out lady even told me it is ok we all have these types of days, where we just can't hold it in.  All while my daughter went about her merry little way as if nothing just happened.

Either way to this day I have never felt as embarrassed as I did in those few last moments before checking out. I mean I was 50 shades red instead of grey.

Thank You for stopping by and reading about one of the most embarassing moments of my life.

That Occassionally Chaotic Mom,
Diedra

Everyone Has One

Opinions.

Everyone Has An Opinion! We all have our beliefs, we all have things we like, or dislike.

Guess What?  Its ok that we disagree.

What makes an opinion not an opinion? Is when you start your opinion, someone disagrees and then you start pushing information with facts,made up facts, or because you search the web to find one person who made an article on their beliefs that agree with yours to say these ares facts. Hate to break it to ya NOT everything you read on the internet is fact. 

Someone by the name of Kelsi that I don't know from Adam or eve, that sometimes or a few times have shared things they have gone viral, but on one of her comments she said it best.

"Everyone has our opinions, but we like to cram our opinions and thoughts down each others throats, but don't like it when others do it to us."

Really, this world people have gotten to where they don't like talking about what we believe in, don't like sharing our Opinions on anything anymore due to the fact it turns into a heated debate. Then people who do PUSH their opinion on someone to get that person to believe or think the way they do get butthurt when things don't go their way.

I mean seriously face true facts, not everyone is going to like your opinion. Doesn't mean friendships have to be ruined because y'all disagree.  The saddest part is people who don't even know a person who may have commented on a post they came across or a comment they came across due to having mutual friends  begin belittling a person, become angry toward the person and says mean things all because someone disagreed.

To be 100% honest, I have never seen so many people get butthurt over disageed opinions than I have since Trump has been president. But why? Just because you don't like him or disagree with him doesn't mean the next person has to feel that way. 

Opinions people, they aren't set in stone, they do change.

Thanks for stopping by,

The Occassionally Chaotic Mom,

Diedra

Triggers

Not talking about a gun trigger.

Lets talk mental health triggers and triggers for myself that are out of my control.

Lets be real if you suffer with mental illness almost always there is a trigger that you are aware on top of a chemical imbalance. Over time though you may develop more than one trigger.  I use to numb mine with an addiction to pain medicine but being sober I have come to learn what can trigger it.

I often thought that I had general anxiety disorder but in reality I suffer with just anxiety. The only difference between the two is time. My anxiety "flares"up is how I like to describe it. It flares up during very stressful moments or situations in my life.  Whereas to be diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder, its the definition of anxiety but lasting 6 months or more. It took me years to realize that my anxiety triggers weren't just my kids. Because I do develop anxiety over my kids situations, the worry wart in me comes out to play.  But stress, I have stress related anxiety. During very difficult stress filled situations my anxiety flares up. These are two triggers that I solely only deal with that are out of my control.  I do have my occasional anxious feelings but for the most part during these times are just things that could have been avoided.

Avoid stress most people say but that isn't always the case. For example its the time of the year and the very month (February) my fiance gets laid off some. Leaving some of his checks short. Therefor, it becomes stressful to me because February is a short month with the same bills, on top of Valentines day and our sons birthday. Its stress I can't avoid even though I know it will happen and know February will always exist and I can't skip over it, so I cant avoid it the stress. Its almost like the fear of the unknown. Stress of knowing we have bills to pay (they come first), a birthday(well of course I wouldnt ever not buy my kids something for their birthdays), and a holiday (no we don't have to buy for but we do and we don't go over board, candy'stuff animal, & two balloons from dollar tree) to pay for.

Now the things I do to help alleviate the anxiety are different and a few things that I do to help lighten the stress will be up on a different post.

Do you suffer with anxiety? If so do you know what or have you learned your triggers?

With all that being said, I do know people that suffer with anxiety that have never figured out or can't pin point what may be triggering it. As well as I know there are people who are just full of themselves and want someone to feel sorry for them their for they use anxiety as an excuse to gain attention. Which sucks because it makes it hard for people who does suffer with it hard to understand.

Thanks for stopping by my blog, have questions, just ask.

The Occassionally Chaotic Mom,

Diedra