Exhausted at Midnight!

Its such an awkward thing to be so exhausted while your wide awake.  I love working my new jobs...yes that's right. I haven't worked in almost 8 years and the first week of my new job which is at an in home care service. I was hired on for a similar job except you can call it private duty. Today I put in close to 11 hours including the driving may possibly add another hour on to that.  I started working at 10 this morning and didn't walk in my door until 10 til 10 pm.  I am absolutely love working to provide for my own family and catch up on bills along with being able to give my kids an awesome Christmas (with Santa's Help Of Course)! But one thing I'm not use to is spending that time away from my kids. :/ It hurt my heart that my daughter missed me so much and was so exhausted when I got home from all the fun she had with Ken Daddy, that she laid down and passed out. Does any other working moms have this issue as well?

Give me some pointers on how to balance time at work and my family.

Holy Smokes! We have Fall weather...

I'm so glad that we have fall weather. Its the best yet. What do you do during the fall? 

My fall things....

1. Pumpkin Carving and or painting pumpkins.

2. Decorate for Halloween

3. We get ready for Thanksgiving.

Simple right!? That's right we are pretty simple. Although during the fall season we may make other things or do other things.  Such as this year I'm hoping to be off next weekend to take the kid to the pumpkin patch.

Now give me some ideas on what you all do during the fall.   

Decisions As A Mother

By now you can tell I'm very random/chaotic. Nothing has a pattern but then again I'm still new to the blogging scene. Tonight my blog is title decisions because today I had to make one that as a Mother I wish i didn't. But as you can tell already my life isn't a fairytale. Neither one of my children's dads have every been in the picture especially my daughters dad. However my sons dad has been in and out which to me isn't any better. But as a good mother I would fall for the BS and take him up to his dads house when he called wanting to see him.  I felt as my son would see no matter what mommy tried. Well my sons dad got arrested almost three months ago. I assumed he was out and like always has forgotten to call and check on his son. I was wrong his mother got a hold of me today to inform me he is still there and depending on the judge could be facing up to 15 years. Lets do the math Brayden will be 5 in February if he got the maximum sentence Brayden will be nearly 20. But his mom asked me if I could write him about brayden.  Hmmmm......

HERE'S MY DECISION

My children mean the world to me and Brayden's dad deserves to know how great he is doing. I want my son to know no matter what mommy has tried. I started this letter this afternoon and although i get to a point I feel I'm done writing. More and more thoughts come to  my mind. I'm hoping with Braydens dad being in his right mind that Brayden will get the apology he deserves from the man that gave him life.

Although I will never regret being with either one of my childrens dads because without them I wouldn't have my kids but I do regret the hardships my kids have had to deal with not having their dads around. Although at this point in life and things I now  learn as an adult about my daughters dad. She is better off.  But my decision like stated before my son doesn't understand but he needs to hear it from his dad the truth of why he hasn't always been around and the apology he deserves.

For TEENS who want a baby please read this and understand that the dad not always will stay around. Things will come before you and your child especially if the person is young and not ready to give up partying. 9 chances out of 10 these will be decisions you will have to make. Maybe not this intense but possibly to decide that the person you fell in love with isnt always the person they turn out to be.

Tackle Touchdown

Considering we are approaching Football season, i thought the title fit appropriately. Be cause i just got word that as of Monday I will be pretty much full time at work.trying to juggle working full time job along with being a mother has been challenging. Remember i havent worked in nearly 8 years.  Today was my planned getting house together day but my son has ran really high fever the past two days. So we have been in and out of the house due to doctor appointments and having to make sure hes covered at school for being absent which with this new policy for school in my opinion is BS excuse my English. Im surprised i havent wrote a ranting post about that yet.  But right now my biggest challenge is working all day and now a little in the afternoon and trying to catch everything up. My living room couch has became a  caatch all (mainly just clothes). Todaay though is tackling that getting all the launcry up and put away a long with cleaning my childrens room. Why becauseonderful son thout it would be funny to pour out baby powder in the floor. So today im going to tackle until I touchdown on Thursday!

RIP CHRISTOPHER WESCOAT

I know I don't blog like I should especially this past week but I have been extremely busy. But I wanted to take time out tonight to blog about a man I've known most of my life. Chris and I went to a small town school together with a lot of other kids. But the town we lived in everyone knew everyone. Chris was in a boating accident in September and came up missing. October 10th,2013 his body was found and today was visitation.  To be honest his death has been really hard on me.  I've known him since I WaS five and we were never on bad terms. In which I don't think he was ever on bad terms with anyone. That was just Chris he was a very easy down home southern man.  you never realize how much someone has impacted your life until they aren't there to continue.  I don't know if his death has bothered me so bad because of knowing him for years. Or the fact that I seen him for the first time 3 weeks before he came up missing in nearly 6 years. The last words I heard him say was see ya around. Not knowing that would be the last time I'd see him around. That our class reunion won't be the same which is in May of 2014.  may God give his family peace and closure while their child RIP. Class of 2004 reunion will not be the same.

RIP ROO YOU WILL BE GREATLY MISSED!

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Hours Hours & More Hours!

I'm absolutely loving this work week. Have gotten more hours! Then on top of it I got my portal notification set up for my other job! I haven't worked almost 8 years and now I'm working I absolutely love it! Can't wait to go shopping this weekend if possible to go put stuff in layaway for the kids for Christmas! :)

8 Days

My first born will be 8 years old. I never imagined at 28 years old that I'd have an eight year old. but I do and would not change it for the world. She is my pride and joy along with her brother but she never ceases to amaze me!  She's extremely temperamental (explains the red hair) but has an extreme soft side.  She enjoys reading and crafting. Loves to help but only when she wants to help momma. But that's usually when I can get it done faster. LOL

Plans For Her Birthday

As right now there is no set birthday party. We are planning Friday to order Disney Live tickets that will be a surprise. I have thought about letting her take a friend to Chuckee Cheese. But this time of year money is always tight! So we will see..but for now I'm gonna dream about it and call it a night!

SleepOver on A School Night?

Why Not? Your children are only little once! Brayden was the only boy in his class for almost two months until this Tyler boy came along. He'd beg and beg for Tyler to come over. Not knowing his parents couldn't make those plans. Then one morning he pointed Tyler out and I've known his mom for years. Well since she was little. She hung out with my neighbor. However they play together so good they are best friends and I'm happy Brayden has a boy his age to be friends with. He's surrounded by girls on our block and the boys are three or four years older than him. But they kept asking if Tyler could stay the night and his mom OK'd it and bam. But hey boys were fed, bathed, in bed by 8:00 pm and asleep by 8:30pm. Ryleigh is in bed now guess where this momma is going. To bed!

Remember your kids only have one life let them enjoy it within reason.

Night All!